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This will be my last update.
I refuse to put myself out to those who feel nothing but misplaced disgust with me, and I frankly talked myself out of caring enough about them to try anymore.
Aaaanyways!
So, graduated. That was wild. Four years and I'm done, only ready for another 6, at least. Yay? It was still pretty fun. Got Phip his Driver's License, then was awake for the next 24 hours. Got graduated, went out to eat, then Project Grad. That was fun until about 3 in the morning.
Oh, yeah, I won Nicest Senior. That was neat.
My uncle came in again. Brought cash and a rolex. Coolest graduation presents ever!
Now, my Uncle has a PhD in Physics from Oxford. He was so good that they allowed him to actually SKIP his Masters degree. He was high enough in the Korean Government to actually be allowed to put it on his gravestone (If you are too low, you cannot say you are a Government Official with honor). He's literally been asked to go to workshops, by the US Government, at MIT and Harvard.
Latest Project? He's developed a new type of...stuff. It's similar to stone. It's moldable like plastic. It's cheaper than plastic. It's stronger than marble. He just got asked to work with some people in the states. $10,000,000 research and a 12,000 square foot office, all that.
To find this out, we had to go to Detroit. Man...that's a long drive. 15 hours both ways, a bit more overall. It was strange, driving that far. At wee-hours in the morning, none the less. Overall, it was a decent, if not slightly dull, trip. Bought myself a Love Hina CD though, yay there.
I think my Uncle can pull some strings for me...I don't doubt that he'll be able to put in some good words with colleges, but more so, with travel. He's talking about a trip through Africa eventually, which will bring him through Egypt, and mentioned something about taking people with. Overall, he's probably the single most amazing person I've ever met. He talked about finding out how to build a cheaper, more effecient BOMB while watching TV. Or about how he'll come up with equations while he's eating, and just get up to write them down. I pray that I'll be to Anthropology or Writing or History or anything, including Crack-Whoredom, what he is to life.
Ya know, it's weird...my last post has nothing to do with myself. Well, if you ever have anything you need or wanna know, you know where to find me, eh?
Here's a bit more, actually..
As a Koh, I am even more than I thought, and that was a lot...There are statues of Kohs in Korea, speaking of bravery versus the Japanese invasions. We were officially ranked second under the Emperor and my grandfather's home is a national landmark because of the Koh blood that runs in it. We are scholars and warriors, able to trace our blood directly back. My uncle said that he wished to renew the honor of the name, as it is lost in the modern world...
I pray I live up to it.
Later, Space Cowboy
-William, "Sage Daegun Koh", Silcott
Actually, the more I read it, the more I decided to really use this up.
Inspirational:
Through all my life, there has been one constant. No, not change, that's too easy. The constant is Hope. Even in my darkest hours, I always wanted more, and that's the only reason I'm still here, now. Without Hope, all is truly lost..That is where I have lost myself, not too long ago. I was afraid to say "if" because that meant uncertainty. That leads to doubt. Having doubt leads to embracing it, and that will leave you Hopeless, empty. Never let that doubt hold you. Know when to let go, but do not let yourself become Hopeless.
Angst:
There are times I really hate you, and you know who you are. It's more than one, less than five. I don't know if you realized how deep you all wedged your blades...but I opened my lives to you. All of you, and namely two...My family opened their hearts, even in a time of mourning...and yet I am so easily cast aside. I want you to know what you've done to me...how I felt alone at my own Graduation knowing that what I once had is now gone...and why? Because of the pride of another. Because of forging useless alliances to make themselves feel better, feel in the right...And so be it. My life will continue, and I pray two things...Part of me prays that this holds you tightly and serves as a reminder of what YOU have done to ME after my kindness...The other, that it ends with me, so that others after us, and there have been others before, do not suffer as we have.
Bang.
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